That's a nice way of saying what I am this morning: challenged. When really what I feel is spent.
There are three self-imposed challenges for the year going on, and right now they're all twisted and tangled and it feels like a lot. Here they are, not necessarily in order of importance:
1. Learn to stop eating like an asshole. A normal day for me for the past 35+ years: coffee for breakfast, some kind of sando/salad/soup/snacks for lunch, 5-10 pieces of chocolate or maybe a 1/2 lb bag of m&ms over the course of the afternoon, and some kind of meat and wine for dinner, usually after a day with 2 workouts totaling 1.5-2.5 hours.
I am 7 days into the Whole 30. Nothing processed. No dairy (normal for me), no grains, no legumes, no booze, and definitely no sugar (holy crap). I'm at that point where my energy is really low. I'm also at the point where I had to use the next belt puka and I am not craving sugar so much every afternoon. I'm learning to like eating breakfast, and waking up a little bit hungry, for the first time ever. A normal day now: A big plate of eggs scrambled with kale/tomato/mushrooms thrown in, a huge salad covered with veggies and steak or chicken for lunch, and salad with a little ahi/mahi/ono for dinner. If I need a snack, which I sometimes do before the evening workout, I have Justin's almond butter straight from the pack, or a pile of dry roasted mac nuts, which come easy around here.
I have the lack-of-carb flu. I am exhausted and want to nap a lot. It goes away, I remember from last time I ate well, but it's hard to get through. I ran 12.5 miles Monday morning feeling like my upper body wanted to curl in on itself. Then I paddled hard for an hour at practice in the evening. I was too tired to bother with dinner afterward. HK and his oldest had to do a little jump up and down jig while singing please please please to motivate me to drive home to them. I couldn't muster the energy. My body misses sugar. I haven't figured out how to get enough calories yet without the junk, and I'm barely making it to 1000-1500 a day, with something like 20g of carbs. I'm working on getting better. I'm not going to lie: I don't like vegetables. Or fruit, really, with a handful of exceptions. But I hate my sugar addiction, and the mood and energy swings and gut disruption a 1/2 lb of peanut butter m&ms do to me even more. I am too old to live on candy.
2. Trail running/an ultra marathon: I signed up for the Tantalus Triple Trek. It's Karen's fault. She did it too and somehow made it sound like a smart idea. The race is 3x the Tantalus race I did last weekend, for a total of 50k, at the end of August. I'm 70% committed, I'd say. Maybe 50. I 50% believe it's possible. I will train for it and see what the day brings. I bought my first ever pair of trail shoes. I've added an hour+ trail run to my usual training each week. This morning, Stacky and I ran the Maunawili Exhibition trail. It was beautiful. HK got up with me, put on all his running stuff, then climbed back into bed and refused to get out. He's eating clean with me, and I think at his size (200+) and with all his weight lifting, the lack of junk is taking an even bigger toll. I'd call him lazy, but he made me a big eggy breakfast post-run, so that'd be ungrateful and bratty of me.
3. Challenge #3 has been brewing for a while. I took a leap and started a business. I've been quietly coaching a few athletes. Some triathletes, and some runners. I have a lot of beginner runner friends who wanted workouts, so I started a group email list to send out their weekly workouts. Then I got a name. And a logo, and a coaching certification, and a trademark, and a website that's almost ready to share. And with each step I took, more athletes popped up asking me to coach them. Mostly for run races, which I consider my arena, but some for triathlons as well, which I'm happy to do. And instead of saying no, I don't have the time, I'm sorry, I started saying Yes. Because I love it, and I do have the time to do something I love. I'm getting 4-5 hours of sleep per night these days, but once the start-up is over, I expect that to get better. I realized at some point, that while I work in science, I sure as hell don't love anything about science. At least not dirt science. But I absolutely love the science of training, and making training plans for my friends. Whether it's mine and KN's Chicago Marathon sub-3 plan, based on a mix of a little Jack Daniels, a little Hansen's, and our years of experience, or it's a Kona plan for a Kona-virgin based on my 4 happy Kona Ironman races and what I learned, or a sprint plan for a new triathlete - I love working out the details. So I'm doing it. More details on the working out the details soon.